The beginning of a life time

Hi,

As this is my very first blog, i feel as through i should introduce myself. I am a teenage fashionista, i adore fashion and i am going to be a fashion designer. at a respectable secondary school in bucks, with a loving family around me and a big friendship group. So many people might be wondering why i feel as through i should start blogging. The reason is that there is something missing in my life, a certain spark. That just isn't there. I also need to vent my feelings about certain aspects.

Lets get this ball rolling.

My first rant is at my Friend who will be names as L. L and i used to be best of friends ( there was a little 4, L, A, G and me). Now she doesn't value my friendship. We will be at school and she will completely ignore me and i don't know why. I haven't done anything wrong on purpose. She just doesn't seem to make an effort at all, Not even a smile. This isn't the first time that this has happed, last time i talked to her about it, and she told me that she will make an effort and she also turned it around so that i was in the wrong, (which i think is pretty unfair), she also got with the guy i had dibbs on first, but we will come to that later. Well everything was all good for about 3 days until she decided again that i wasn't worth her time. This i find most distressing, because i haven't done anything wrong. i have been my normal friendly self. I haven't changed, the same person i was last year, when the situation was different.

I through that it would be a good change going up to Sixth form, but how wrong could i be. it feels as through everything has been thrown up in the air and now the pieces don't fit. All the friendship groups are different, all my so called best friends don't want anything to do with me. They have now found new people, its not that i don't have any friends, i have loads, if you don't mine me seeming a little big headed, but its not the same, by a long way. our little 4 used to be sooo close. we told each other everything. Now there is nothing, but memories, Hopefully it will all come back together again, in its own time. that will be all for now. i am going out for a meal so i will add to this later.